I have a love/hate relationshit with technology.
While technology can make things easier for most of us, it’s a bitch and a half for someone who has a traumatic brain injury.
My particular case is particularly frustrating because the blows to the head which I received via working at Walmart (the pallets would break and hit me in the head) and the seizure I had, which was the result of stress I experienced while working as a community trainer for someone with autism for nearly a decade have destroyed my patience with objects, but not people-so long as the sons of bitches don’t judge me.
Let me tell you what happens when this shit goes down.
First, something won’t work on a particular object.
Next, I try again.
By the third attempt, I’m in big trouble. Red flashes into my brain and I have to hope that I can duck out in time-or I just act on instinct.
This is a serious problem which I experience and I am desperately trying to correct this, because of the disastrous results of failing to control frustration-all of which are well known.
I know that I am not the only one who goes through this, so I encourage you to share your experiences online with those who believe it’s simply a matter of self-control.
You want to know something? I’m completely calm right now. Why? Because I’m not working with a composition program which has given me nothing but problems all night.
Let’s see what happens when I return to it-which I must. I have work that’s due.