Posted on

How Bad Off Am I-Seriously?

 

Article

$0.50

Living with traumatic brain injury is bad enough-and everyone here knows that I have it and how I got it during my infancy.

Not only do I have to wonder what the second seizure did to me in 2007, but I now have to worry whether or not I have chronic traumatic encephalopathy, or CTE.  While football and soccer players are known to have this condition, I have to check this out because I suffered numerous blows to the head when I worked at Walmart.

You see, the pallets broke-a lot.

If the information which I am currently reviewing from the Mayo Clinic is any indication, I think that I will take a pass on the autopsy, because that seems to be the only time to make said diagnosis.

I do not have cognitive problems at this time.  However, my hands do shake and it’s harder for me to control my temper.

I try to control my impulses.

I am aggressive toward objects more than I am people-unless they don’t listen.

I have never been able to plan or execute executive function, so that’s nothing new.

I don’t drink or smoke (Phineas Gage became an alcoholic).

I gave up on the thought of committing suicide-years ago..

I become quite irate, but won’t physically attack.  As for verbal attacks, that’s a different paradigm.  Just don’t fuck with me, okay?

I have always had some motor impairment because of the meningitis, but my hands shake more often, so I must investigate.

There is a possibility that I may come up with this later in life because of the pallets which hit me in the head.

Yeah, God loves my ass, alright-enough to fuck me over more than once.

The best source for information on this is https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/chronic-tramatic-encephalopathy/symptoms-causes/syc-20370921.

This puts Proverbs 22:24 in perspective, does it not?  This is the verse which tells the ignorant not to make friends with an angry man and to not hang around anyone who has a short fuse.

Again, this particular book was not written by a doctor with a psychology degree, but by an idiot who had no understanding of the human brain, nor how it worked.  The Bible was written by ignorant fools who judged people they didn’t take the time to understand.  Hence, there is no reason to pay any attention to it, as ignorance only worsens relationships between people and leads to painful misunderstandings.

I have no remorse.  I have done nothing wrong.  I guess this goes back to a little thing which happened at church not too long ago.  Then again, the person who interfered was once a cop-and we all know how bright they are-not very.

Advertisements
Posted on

Heaven and Hell

Article

$0.50

 

Someone in a Facebook discussion stated: “I don’t believe in heaven or hell.


But damn. If there is a heaven, dogs should take precedence.”

Well, if there’s no Hell, I’d like to know where Adolf Hitler is for genocide and I’d also like to know where Donald Trump is headed since he likes to make fun of people with disabilities:

Of course, there’s a Hell.  We’re all evil in one sense or another, as the human being is a prick by his very nature.

However, those who make fun or victimize those born with disabilities are the lowest of human excrement, and their Bible warns them what will happen to them, and the best example of this can be found in Matthew 25:42-46….just see above, as his attitude against the poor and his attitude against the disabled continues to worsen with every day he remains in office.

In fact, anyone who denies the disabled justice will burn like an American flag in Eternity-just look at the parable of Lazarus and the Rich Man in Luke 16:19-31.

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke+16%3A19-31&version=NIV

The funny thing is that all of these people who oppose a rape victim’s right to choose think they are going to Heaven because they truly believe that they saved one life (while ruining another).  This is especially funny since Republicans in Illinois tried to pass a bill which would have made it impossible for a single mother to apply for aid if she could not identify the father of her child.

Now, let’s suppose that the father of her child just happened to be her own father.

It’s quite possible that Christ is disgusted by this behavior, which is being done in His Name, but it’s hard to say for sure.

However, with regard to people with disabilities, remember that the Republican Party has cut services for the disabled since Wigboy weaseled his way into the White House, and they are the ones who want to force everyone to pray in public schools again.

Posted on

Help The Developmentally Disabled FIRST, Or You’re No Democrat

Article

$0.50

As the Republicans consider sterilizing people who have developmental disabilities phony liberals don’t care about children who have developmental disabilities-which is why I’m the only REAL Democrat in this group.

Forget about veterans. They made their own sickbeds-and I hope they die in them. However, we are supposed to be defending the powerless. It wasn’t so long ago that people with developmental disabilities were forcefully sterilized, and it is clear that you want to see the return of this inhuman practice. Otherwise, you would fight these Nazis.

You see, I don’t care if Trump takes your house, because you didn’t care about the plight of the developmentally disabled.

What did Benjamin Franklin say?

“Gentlemen, we must all hang together, or we will surely all hang separately.”

Seeing how Democrats not doing as well as you believe they are right now, it might be a good idea for all of you white bourgeoisie “liberals” to get out of your gated communities and volunteer for people who struggle with learning disabilities. Forget about the troops, because they didn’t watch where they were driving and they mocked us for being unpatriotic during the Iraq War. Anyone who caters to these losers when Donald Trump goes after children who struggle with developmental disabilities really has no right to call himself a Democrat.

You do realize that you’re a complete coward if you help one them now, right?

Democrats are supposed to stand for the voiceless, not the moronic.
Democrats are supposed to stand for the developmentally disabled, not war criminals.
Democrats are supposed to stand for the equal rights of all.

So, I would like to know why so many of you refuse to do this, because that makes you no better than Donald Trump.  Hence, you have no right to label yourself as a Democrat, as you are a liar.

 

 

Posted on

America Is So Religious That It Doesn’t Want To Send the Disabled To College

 

 

 

 

photo

$0.25

Article

$0.50

 

 

https://www.bls.gov/opub/ted/2015/people-with-a-disability-less-likely-to-have-completed-a-bachelors-degree.htm

Isn’t it funny how the conservatives in the United States of America claim to be pro-life, but they want to get rid of the Americans with Disabilities Act-which was actually signed by a Republican president (who was held hostage by a Democratic Congress during a midterm year)?

http://www.newsweek.com/house-republicans-americans-disabilities-act-civil-rights-808106

These wonderful Christians claim that those who are disabled abuse the law. How can that be when Americans with disabilities are less likely to complete a bachelor’s degree-which I just happened to have by the way?

Hm.  What does their God have to say about this?

Leviticus 19:14 14″‘Do not curse the deaf or put a stumbling block in front of the blind, but fear your God. I am the LORD.
These “Christians” who want to put God back in schools want the disabled kicked out of them-and my fiancee is going through this right now with her son, who has issues with low blood sugar.  She also has a daughter who is developmentally disabled.

Personally, I curse the Church for this.  I don’t curse Christ, because Christianity and Jesus Christ are two entirely different paradigms.

Did He not heal the sick-for free?

Did He not make the blind see-for free?

Do you know what these “Christians” have done?  According to their own Bible, they have officially cursed our nation.

This columnist has news for those business owners who have a fish on their door and vote Republican.  You are under a curse.

Luke 7:22

And He answered and said to them, “Go and report to John what you have seen and heard: the BLIND RECEIVE SIGHT, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, and the deaf hear, the dead are raised up, the POOR HAVE THE GOSPEL PREACHED TO THEM.

Mark 7:32-37They brought to Him one who was deaf and spoke with difficulty, and they implored Him to lay His hand on him. Jesus took him aside from the crowd, by himself, and put His fingers into his ears, and after spitting, He touched his tongue with the saliva; and looking up to heaven with a deep sigh, He said to him, “Ephphatha!” that is, “Be opened!” read more.

And his ears were opened, and the impediment of his tongue was removed, and he began speaking plainly. And He gave them orders not to tell anyone; but the more He ordered them, the more widely they continued to proclaim it. They were utterly astonished, saying, “He has done all things well; He makes even the deaf to hear and the mute to speak.”

Conservatives and business owners who support Republicans are also going to burn in Hell.

Matthew 25:42-46 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’ 44″They also will answer, ‘LORD, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’ 45″He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’ 46″Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”
Donald Trump is in for one Hell of a surprise!

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/video/2015/nov/26/donald-trump-appears-to-mock-disabled-reporter-video

Do you know who else is going to Hell?  All of those “Christian” business owners who voted for him.

 

 

 

Posted on

Let Those Who Vote Republican in the Rust Belt Decay Away

Article

$0.50

 

NBC News’ report on the continuing deterioration of America’s rust belt states can only make you laugh, because voters in those states went to Trump.

https://www.nbcnews.com/specials/geographyofpoverty-heartland-1

Now I ask you: Why should a liberal have any compassion for an idiot?  It’s one thing to be poor and deprived.  However, when you are a somewhat educated person and you choose to vote against yourself, there is nothing left to do than to be pointed to and laughed at when are you, the blue-collar conservative drown-which I constantly do.

The lives of red state conservative voters mean nothing to me because the lives the sick and the lives of uninsured infants (whom they wanted so desperately to be born to that 10-year-old rape victim) mean nothing to them.

This is one thing that “Facebook Democrats” are too stupid to figure out, as they turn a slam-dunk election into a nailbiter.

If people in red states die in the hospital waiting room because they chose to elect Republicans who opposed the public option, then fuck ’em.

Let them die.

 

Posted on

And So, It Begins….

Article

$0.50

 

And so, it begins, my journey into the world of Education… all as I hear Pink Floyd’s Another Brick in the Wall playing in my brain.

You already know that I’m conflicted about this, as I kind of see this as selling out.  However, I need a job which has union support-especially after what I went through both at Walmart and as a community trainer and respite worker for someone with autism.

One of the things I already realize is that I can’t do things the same way I did when I was a community trainer.   I can’t open the trunk of my car and show some bigot or bully that I’m not bluffing when I threaten to take his teeth out, break his knees, and bash his spine when he makes fun of someone who has a developmental disability-which was something no one in the Company ever knew that I did, otherwise I’d have been fired.  That’s kind of funny, because I found myself engaging in that very act almost every day that I went to work with the guy.

There were always some idiots, usually white trash or white suburbanite pricks, who told me that he needed to be put away in an institution.  Tommy is the only reason I didn’t do it, as he would usually take me out of the situation before the bastard who said what he said wound up twitching on the floor in a pool of his own blood-Tommy knew that I would do it, too.  He started out completely non-verbal, but he learned how to plead me to leave by saying the word go.

I suppose one of the funnier episodes is when this white woman clutched her daughter and pulled her closer (because Tommy was black).  She became verbally abusive after I informed her that the white sheets were in Aisle-5.

Of course I said that right in front of her daughter!  Would you expect any less of me?  I mean, come on!

I defended him every day by destroying anyone who taunted him, and no one ever knew about it.  That’s kind of stupid, firing someone for defending the client by any means necessary, but I digress.

Do I want to teach?

No, because it’s so politicized now that it’s hardly worth it.  However, it’s possible that I’m being driven in a position I don’t want to go to wait for the opportunity in my true calling-which is what I do right now…writing.

Maybe I’m supposed to do this teaching crap, not only to tell kids what really went down in recent American history (although they’re going to have to answer according to the textbook), but to teach and enforce the idea of diversity-which is a dangerous concept in the America ruled by the Trump regime.

 

Posted on

America’s Hypocritical Position on Traumatic Brain Injury

Article

$0.50

 

 

 

You may be like me in that you have a tough time controlling your temper.

None of that ‘count to ten’ crap works for you, either, does it?

Yeah, that’s what I figured.

The problem may be that your frontal lobes might be compromised, if not destroyed to some extent.   Worse, the more you try to explain the situation, the more you are dismissed-which is why I have no sympathy for  who don’t hit the dirt or find a place to hide when someone’s breaking point has been cracked and they exercise their Second Amendment rights in Las Vegas.
According to Sanford University, the prefrontal cortex is associated with higher attention, cognition, following society’s rules, and controlling one’s impulses (source: Stanford, Zero to Three, January 2009).
I know how I get when things don’t work after I follow the written instructions-get out, and get out now.
I

t has gotten worse over the distance of time, due to the number of pallets which hit me in the head when I worked at Walmart.  I can feel it, but I can’t stop it.  I scream obscenities, punch walls, and floor the pedal on the car.  And when I’m accused of having a bad attitude, that’s when you’re playing with matches, as all I am is the spilt Unleaded 93 because there’s a line of gas that leads straight to the pump.

Talk about your Terrible Herbst!

With all the discussion about the traumatic brain injuries suffered by idiots who paid no attention to the road en route to Fallujah or Tikrit, it seems that Americans should express at least some benefit of the doubt toward those of us who didn’t engage in murder via the United States government during the Iraq War.   We  all know they’re going to get that benefit of the doubt when one of them stands on trial for murder, but what about the rest of us who suffer from the same condition through no fault of our own?

Rehabilitation is the answer, not incarceration.  If this society is going to allow rapists in American military uniforms to walk free because they drove over a bomb, Americans who got traumatic brain injury by illness or accident should be afforded the same courtesy.

Posted on

What the Hell Happened to Me?! Who Cares? I Have Victories To Win

I rehabilitate myself at least three days a week.

I have a great physical trainer with whom I have much in common.  However, there is a peculiar issue with which currently confuses me.

After I acquired meningitis in 1971, my right side became more dominant (I began life ambidextrous).  Although I still ate with my left hand and despite the fact that I played kickball and soccer with my left leg, I batted right-handed and slugged people with my right fist while in the course of defending myself all through my elementary school years.  Remember that I had been bullied almost to death earlier in my life.  Fighting was the only way to keep bullies away from me.

Something is amiss, however, because my right leg is now more stable than my left.

While my balance was never anything to brag about, one of my biggest fears I was in my twenties was being having to perform a sobriety test in front of Los Angeles Sheriff’s deputies because I was never good at heel-toe.

While it has always been quite the adventure to stand on either leg, I now see that my current ability to do this has become much more difficult.

My physical trainer has me stand on one of those big plastic balls that a first grade teacher might improvise to represent Jupiter, but I have to fight for control-regardless of which leg I use.  The irony is that my right leg has now become stronger than my left.

This is a serious concern for me, because the question now arises:

WHAT DID THE 2007 SEIZURE DO TO MY BRAIN?

l knew that something was wrong from the moment I was in the emergency room in Burbank, California.  When the neurologists told me that they could clearly see the original brain damage, but could find no evidence of anything new, I screamed,  “BULLSHIT!  SOMETHING’S WRONG!  I FEEL DIFFERENT!”

The neurologists continued to insist that there was nothing new.  However, my behavior had changed-and not for the better, either.

My fuse became shorter, whereas I had it nearly under control before this.

I was  able to pull off what I call a Yosemite Sam, which is the ability to find a way out of an aggravating situation and defuse in a safe place.

However, I am unable to do so now.

I struggle with social skills again, and it’s almost as  bad as when I struggled with the same skills thirty years ago.  I experience more difficulty with verbal intent.

The biggest mystery to me, however, is why my left side has become stronger and exhibited more control than my right side, as this never was.

What damage did that second seizure infect upon me, and where, other than the frontal lobes-which were already damaged by the meningitis?

One thing which I have always had in my favor is that I refuse to accept what is.  There’s no point in living if you accept limitations.

You do what you can with what you have left.  Whatever you lack, you take for yourself and take the freeways out of town, as quality of life is more important than life itself.

While it’s harder for me to concentrate and while it’s more difficult for me to remain civil to the truly idiotic who choose to believe that I’m a drug addict, I did acquire my college degree-something that most people would never have thought I could ever do.

So, if you know someone like me, don’t count them out.  Not only do they possess hidden talents which can benefit the world, but the same people also a simmering rage if disenfranchised-and you don’t want your family to get that phone call, do you?

Article

$0.50

Posted on

Another Nameless Metal Composition

Article

$0.50

Music Recording

People with developmental disabilities are more capable than you believe.

$0.25

 

 

I realize what a lot of you are thinking.

 

This guy kind of sucks on the axe.  However, you did read some time ago that I never claimed to be Dimebag Darrell Abbott or Randy Rhoads.

 

This composer has a developmental disability and has had two seizures.  Hence, he records the tune while the notes are still in his mind.  There is virtually no short-term memory, and it’s too late by the time some of the melody returns.

 

The worst thing about it is the melody is never the same once some of it returns to my mind.

 

Just be happy that I’m keeping the classical heavy metal era alive through these compositions.  Maybe I’ll have a kid one day who can perfect his or her old man’s works, but these are the best I can do for right now.  Be grateful that this Jack the Ripper is not a dull boy by only displaying one type of material on here.

 

There are different sides to my personality, other than being a cut-throat liberal, and I want to share some of the other sides.  These recordings are only one verse long, as one should figure that the other one or two verses are the same-just like in a hymnal.

 

You probably have no idea that my hands shake as I type.  Well, they do.  I’m lucky that I can do any of this.

 

My hands shake because of what has happened to me over the course of time.  There are times when I should record the compositions in pieces and take short breaks in between.

 

My left hand shakes as I type this, in fact, and this is probably something that I will have to deal with for the next 50 or 60 years.

https://freedomfortheoppressed.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/10/Recording-7.m4a

 

This is just more proof that people with disabilities can do more than what most people expect.

Posted on

Night Rider

Music Recording

People with developmental disabilities are more capable than you believe.

$0.25

While it’s true that these recordings aren’t exactly perfect, I release them as is due to the fact that my short-term memory is lacking.  The main point is that Americans with developmental disabilities can create, whether you think they can or not.
I can always perfect the recording later.

I can actually hear the percussion parts in my mind as I compose the tune-too bad I can’t play a set of Slingerlands worth a damn.

This is kind of a thrash piece that I’ve been contemplating for a few hours.  It kind of reminds me of something that Anthrax would have recorded for the 1985 album Spreading the Disease.